All I Want, Gone and Back

Tonight i thought of something

about all i've said

about all i've done

and about all i've created

And to think all that

was full of sins

done to gratify myself

but also to make God above despise me

I wish

I was blind

So all that's despicable

I cannot see

I wish

I was deaf

So all that's not God's will

I cannot hear

I wish

I was mute

So all that's despicable of saying

I cannot say

I wish

I was paralyzed

So all that's bad to do

I cannot do

But what good is life?

when all i can do

is NOTHING...

What good can we do?

when all of us

are despicable to God

as we are sinners

Thank Lord for Christmas

As You gave us one more hope

of survival and love

As we could live today

with hope of sitting next to You

All we got to do is...

BELIEVE . . .

A Missing Piece - Un Morceau Manquant

All I hoped

was a love

to change one feeling

As it was crushed

to a million pieces

which i can't mend

without someone to help me

All alone I mended

All alone I tried

As my heart took shape

One piece was missing

And so my smile dissolves

Realizing something was missing

Then came something

What I thought was irreplaceable

Was found

But not with the one before

This piece

is more than I can hope for

More than I can imagine

More than anything

And more than enough

To mend this broken soul

As it was before

I wanted this piece

As my soul hungers for perfection

and happiness will arise to my days

All I want now

All I hope for

is her

to give me the piece

and put it on my heart

And make it shine

And that clear smile

Will come back

Once again...

I LOVE HER . . .

French :

Tout j'ai espéré

était un amour

changer le sentiment de celui Comme il a été écrasé

à un million de morceaux

que je ne peux pas réparer sans quelqu'un pour m'aider Tout seul j'ai réparé

Tout seul j'ai essayé

Comme mon coeur a pris la forme

Un morceau manquait

Et donc mon sourire se dissout Le réalisant de quelque chose manquait 

Alors est venu quelque chose Que j'ai pensé était irremplaçable

A été trouvé 

Mais pas avec un auparavant 

Ce morceau est 

plus que je peux attendre 

Plus que je peux imaginer 

Plus que n'importe quoi 

Et plus qu'assez 

Réparer cette âme cassée Comme il était auparavant 

J'ai voulu ce morceau 

Comme mon âme a faim de la perfection et le bonheur surviendra à mes jours 

Tout je veux maintenant 

Tout j'attends est elle me donner le morceau 

et mis cela sur mon coeur 

Et faites-le briller 

Et ce sourire clair Reviendra De nouveau...  

Je l'AIME...

A Prayer for the Night

As the moon's shine

nearing to fade

into the ray of the bright sun

I close the day with a single prayer

One I hope that the Almighty God

Will bless upon

so my days

will be blessed and forgiven

on my sake of forgiveness

I pray for my family

Who has given and enlighten me the gift of life

Who has given me all the love and care

Who has forsaken me due all my mistakes

But still love me nevertheless

I pray for one I love

As I pray to Thee

For a never ending hope

in my heart

so I will always be hopeful for her sake

And so I will always be cheerful

despite a chance of sorrow

dissolving the colorful paints on my heart

Alast I pray for me

Will u give me strength and happiness

Hope and willingness

Health and wisdom

to help arise my day and my life

To worship Thy name

All for the Name

Amen.

A Glimpse of Indefinite Hope

This time I've gone over the edge

This time I've really fell

over the trench

Of indefinite hopes

Seeing those words

which made me think

Who is he?

That thee refers to?

I wonder

This man

is he who i think he is

And from my blindsighted mind

A name emerges

is it ME?

How I feel embarrassed

Even to myself

As I pop up these names

That the world may not know

unless for the one who i care

I hope for thee

To reveal that name

To end this annihilating curiosity

That neither I nor the world shall know

So it will be you, me, and the Omniscient.

That Single Beep

Since that day

That

Faithful day

All I long is That Single Beep

A single noise on my phone

Long I want to hear it

Long I want to see it

Long I want to open it

So I'll keep in touch

Long I wait

Then it happened

That beep rang

The world seems to smile with me

As I waited to hear

That Single Beep

The only thing is...

What am I going to do next ?

Beyond the Godforsaken Face

Over the high skies

In the city of love

Where all things are beautiful

Lived a figure so inscrutable,

silent and unheard of

Some say

There lives a monster

So horrid and creepy

Nobody wants to view

Whilst inside that monster

Lies a heart so exquisite

Whilst below that hunch on his back

exist a mind full of kindness

worthy of a love

greater than this galaxy is worth

A simplicity of the mind

of someone so shallow

of a heart so pure

as friendship arose

with a gypsy so alluring

As his heart yield

As his hopes amended

For a love so deep

to thy gypsy who lanced that

immaculate soul

His hopes crushed

For a view so annihilating

As a love so deep

crushed by a single view

of a kiss to another

His heart shattered

But still hopeful

He arise and battled

For the love

of the woman

who enthrall him

And awakened the spirit

that kept deep

on the surface of his undiscovered heart.

Long I wait

For a Love Story

Similar

To a story like this

Long I wait

beyond my skin

My heart enthralled

by thy love

who allured my heart and soul

Long I wait . . .

TIME

In this time

I feel nothing inside

My heart seems to crinkle

as it is bored

waiting for a friend

to long beside it

My heart feels weary

also in doubt

for this heart

feels it's color

is one's darkest hope

These eyes

long for view

a mystifying sight

which quenches my thirst

of an angelic dainty

upon these hazy eyes

Long last it came

As thy angelic voice

whisper to my ears

make my day

and euphoria

define my day

All I long is that day

will I face my fear

will I confess to thy angel

All one's heart affection

All I need is your heart

to yield and be vacant

for my soul to bear

All we need is 

TIME

untitled

all you need isn't a clue
neither do you need me
all you need is time

sometimes even i don't understand

that regret doesn't come from a mistake
neither does it come from a failure

it all comes from FEAR

and this heart's pain doesn't come from being left behind
or even being stabbed from the back
instead it comes from not having a deep understanding
of a tale

death don't always mean a pullout
neither does it mean as the end of one's journey

death is the apparent ending of this process we are facing
It won't come back, neither will it end.

A True Confession

I don't know how to describe this

I don't know why

these legs

are shaking like crazy

I don't know why

these hands

are stuck on it's place

I don't know why

These lips

are not moving

All that I want

is to see

deeply into her eyes

gently grasp her hand

caress her

and have time

stop for us

when my lips move

and voices come out

saying

I LOVE YOU.

Yet an eternity seems to elapse

and my heart

beating hard and seems to stop

my ears wide open

to hear your voice

respond to my confession.

A minute I wait

and I hope you

caress my face

gently touch my cheek

and say to me

I LOVE YOU TOO . . .

that will make my life.

will it happen?

Virus

It came

out of nothing

And yet

It attacks

and it gives you a sickness

I am sick

But this virus

is not something

UNWANTED

This virus

is a GIFT

This virus

is something

Everybody wants

It's LOVE . . .

I don't know

how long this

will last

neither do i know

did it come at the right time?

All I know is . . .

I DON'T WANT IT TO GO AWAY

Through the Candle

The night begins for a tale

The night was dark

Everything was unseen

All in a confusion

Where to go ?

Only one candle gives hope

Through the candle we strive

Through the candle I see darkness in front of me

But all changed when the candle points

To an angel who need no light

Through the candle I can see

Something only I

have a chance to think

of who really is

The One.

Through the candle I can see

A view which opens my heart

Which the angel may enter

stay and kill my loneliness.

The end of the tale is reaching upon

as a light appears in front

By then,

the candle has melted.

By then,

she disappeared

Leaving one heart,

opened and empty,

hoping

The angel REAPPEARS.

Will it ?

A Thought in Mind

This blog is a place to share a piece of my mind. 

A mind so full, it wants to burst out.

Here is where it shall be placed.

A Thought in Mind . . .

Like a dam flooded and wanting to burst.

Like a mind so stressed waiting to blow up.

Like a feeling of joy, it needs to be shared.

This is my place . . .

Hope you enjoy . . .